{ HMM }

Another strong urge to write something on this space. it's been a long long time since i ever do a post on thoughts and life.

So today,  I realized i'm actually damn damn useless and good for nothing. sigh a lot to mention. but action speaks louder than words. I'm also thankful. If you don't know, i own a instashop @fundsplz , I'm thankful for customer supports, and my suppliers and lastly my bf.

The one I can use my life to pay him, my bf. Even if we're both super broke the will still find ways to give me money to survive. He will also work hard to get me things that I like. He will always support my decision and give me advise whenever I came a-crossed some obstacle.. The guy who will always give in to me.

Yes we do have ups and downs. I'm always the one who wants to give up on us just because of small lils things. I'm really thankful for him to be with me. I still remember every single thing when we first met. I love him, forever and always.

nobody's gonna replaced him,

{ Screw everything }

itchy finger of mine, go and re-do my blog template and now I just can't retrieve it. What the fish. so cranked up now. Ending work in another 40 mins can't wait. Can't wait for off day on Thursday... I need a good good rest!!!

{ sometimes i gotta feeling }

thank god it's friday. 

working now, I need sales. So bored, boy just left for his work. I did no sales oh no. cracking up my brain. Why? cause my boy's birthday coming.. that's when all the planning starts. getting present and where to go?  I planned what to get for him already, but it's oos now. Sigh need to crack up my brain again T.T anw boy and I just had a sinful dinner. we're the fattys in the house.  

friday nights, boy working on weekends and I am working on sunday. that's just sucks so much, Owell. tomorrow i am meeting my darlings to cycle and ahloy's thai for brunch. Hopefully we don't end up at bugis streets shopping. I need to shop so badly, I want to reborn my hair. Fickled mind like me prefers to have darker shades of hair now. Sigh just look how gold is my hair now? I want to do pedicure and manicure... gelish plz. I need to get the gelish set before I can do on my own. I need my fucking pay now. I'm gonna get ipad mini soon, I hope.... can't wait. 

Am gonna be so broke. Why can't i just be rich???!!!!! ......... 

{ braces off }

today i am supposed to go dental clinic and consult doctor.... because I wanted braces long ago since I was 16.. I think it's pretty and also it makes your face look sharper too. So i ask around, and call and do as many research as I could. Alot have been telling me, "your teeth is so straight, why wanna do. why waste the money" N "you too rich it is" yeah I know the fact. but braces is one of my wishlist. In another hand I am so worried that the doctor won't let me do because my teeth was just perfectly fine. But no, the stubborn me die die my get my things complete. I hack all the comment i received so I went ahead to book the appointment which is today.. And so, i received a call last night say the clinic closed today cause there is no dentist available for me to consult............ I was so pissed.

(after hours of thinking.......) 

i guess it's fate. god doesn't want me to put braces too.. so I decided to save up the money and get my other things in my wishlist .. which is another prada wallet and mini Ipad... both it's not a need... but I just want them.. I save $3K+ anyway (cuz the braces fee) 

so yeah....

no more braces

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{ away for a week }

I'm using the free internet service right now.... lol cuz boy watching soccer (-__-) flying off soon..... heheh can't wait to shop till i drop. but yes, thank you dad for fetching us to the airport...

{New year resolution}

Bad luck or what. I have sent my macbook to hospital. It's under ICU now, so lesser update till I got my macbook back and blog! Well at least it's still under warranty and I don't pay for anything, thank god for that.

I have tons of pictures to blog about!!! but I'm currently using my iphone to blog now so no pic till my lappy it's fixed!

i spent my last few days of 2012 with my loves one! like steamboat with my loverboy and I went pulua ubin on Saturday with my fattys! my first time going there! Cycle + noms with good company. it was awesome.

2012, many things happened. I've wasted another year again for not studying and blah. but at least I'm earning my own money to spend and survive. also had lots of fun in 2012!! let's summarize:

- February, bought boy a LV wallet for his valentine pressie cum anniversary pressie. Also started working in Ez-decor! Sentosa with my berrylite girls! 

-March, Mbs stay over with family, lots of fun! And also got my macbook pro! :) 

- May, planned out boy 21st birthday. And attended boy's ORD parade. And baby niece turned 1 year old!!! 

- July, gathering with friends + BBQ session and the next day 3D4N genting with friends. And also the 4th day we are back, boy and I had photoshoot.

- September, booked my BKK flight!!!!! 

- October, boy got me and Iphone5 white! And also booked hotel for BKK. Also family gathering, dinner at chilli's and chilled over at mbs.

- November, thankful to have my friends and boyfriend to celebrate my birthday with me.

- Decemeber, Almost everyday I got to see my boy!!!! x and of course my lappy it's down >: And also went to pulau ubin to cycle! And I've also got my first branded wallet > Prada!!!

That pretty sumz up my 2012...? And also I've gained alot of weight. le sigh

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New resolution for 2013!

1.) slim down what I gained.

2.) save money.

3.) bank account keep increasing.

4.) spend lesser.

5.) revamped my room.

6.) everyone to stay healthy.

7.) get a admin job.

8.) back to study?

9.) have more time to spend w boy.

10.) Rachel turning 2yrs old! spend time to play with her and bring her out :D

11.) think wisely.

It's more like a wishlist tho. haha.

It's 44th monthsary today. I hope to last forever with my boyfriend. I wanna say thank you for everything you had done! Irregardless of what, I will love you ever and ever! hehehe and thanks for always supporting me whatever I do and respect my decision and also taught me what's life's about. and also guided me through out the year. And I hope to have a stable relationship with you. And not being very sticky kind. Let's work hard for our future!!

Happy new year everyone! x

ps: follow me on instagram and twitter maybe?

{ ✈ up up here we go }

times flies.

November is ending in a weeks time. or I should say less than 5 days time. Welcoming december and 2013... many things happened. be it good or bad. I should say I've been wasting my time. People are busy studying.. and I'm none of them. How I wish I could go back and study.. Of course if can, I would like to study in private than in college. $$$$ is everything.

Joke, I've graduated from Office Skills. I should be working in the admin job.. but i'm here working at retail. crazy, somehow I admired people working in OL's life )': why can't I just be brave and try working admin job?! sigh...... ☹

my dreams is getting nearer and nearer...  another month to go and i'm heading to bkk!!! never thought I would have the chance to go bkk and saving up on my own. I rlly can't wait for this trip with boyf! it's our first time traveling alone and our first time sitting planes together. looking forward hopefully we won't get lost there. another dreams, shall be kept in my heart. god knows ....

lastly,  I would like to thanks my dearest boy for making my wish success!!!!! mwah 8) 

{ one more day to PRIDAY }

back blogging... I wanna change my blogskin. I hate the original template. so ugly I wish I could download skin from blogskin.com but my mac failed to do so.

so yes one more day to friday... weekends!!! without boyfriend it still plain boring but thank god this that this saturday filed with plans!!! I'm going for my first IPL session with @madewithheart excited and awkward much. but i can't wait, need to get rid of armpit hairs and whitening!!! next off to layying's birthday party. and meet up with my fattybooms ^o^ 

but sunday I've got nothing much to do prolly rot at home the whole day. 

talking about $$$$ I've not been saving up for my bkk trip! Okay maybe yes la. I did save about $600.... I need more $$$ to go. I wanna shop as much as I can there. I can't wait to enjoy myself together with boy there for 7days. I can't fucking wait. And I rlly hope I could slim down before going!!! Pray hard I will. but I'm not doing anything.  I'm just too lazy I just wish my metabolism go higher and higher. fuck fats. born to be fat >: 

birthday month coming up very soon..... finally after 2 years of ns boy has not been celebrating with me on the actual... finally it's the ord year 2012 yay! happy girl can't wait xx

dear god, please help me in saving money and dieting x 

{ Sad/happy? }

finally its friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! x1000000 :) 

this morning when boy wanted to surprise me today before he go work..  and he got me my favourite brunch and KOI from his house > orchard then > novena how sweet!! awww blessed to have him around xxxxx

I was about to end work... regular customer came and buy something. and ended up promoting her products to me... and decided to buy from her. there goes my $$$ ... fuck my life. 

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but anyway I got a cheap thrills! IPL treatment for 10 session for only $35 can you imagine?!!? the orignal price $880, i saved $845!!!!! but anyway I'm gg with @madewithheart yay finally got someone willing to go with me... less awkwardness, can't wait for it! 

so i total spent about $80 today, I'm just so upset. 

when I reach home, tada 

parcel (phone covers) and bills all here. 

bro came back from legoland!!!! he won a bear, so cute! 

 SO FUCKING CUTE I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND THE SELLER GAVE ME A FREE SCREEN PROTECTOR TOO ^^  this. with my polaroids together...

 lastly, screen protector for front and back. Don't know which idiot told me there's no back protector. Hiak so happy!!! I received all items within 3 days! xxx 

gonna head out with brendon and cindy tomorrow hohoho 

goodnight all, have a good weekends xxx 

{ keep calm and lose weight }

Strong urge to write something on this blog.... because i've spent my entire afternoon checking here and there being busy and finally it come to an end... 

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1.) I'm gg bangkok next year Feb... I know it's still damn long but yes I could save more money and bring it there? I've be wanting to go there since 454739875 years ago? I'm just kidding but yes I'm going there soon! another 4 months, don't count it, don't remind me.....  I'm going with boyfriend and celebrate our anniversary too! 4 years being together xxxx  

2.) I've been telling boyfriend that from October onwards, I'm going to jog everyday after my work. (I hate jogging among all the exercise but I had no choice) I know it's gonna be super tired... but yes i've to do it.. because I wanna slim down before my birthday which is like november!!!!! I know I can do it... need to learn to say "NO" to food.... and fast food. And no more supper... I hope I can rlly do it ... after seeing all the pretty girls and skinny girl around me, really makes me feels so depress....  So I've to think positive when I slim down 

can wear pretty dress/tops/tube on my birthday/new year/ cny/ special occasion in fact being pretty every day.. Look good being secure. Don't have to scared people staring at me. My thigh my fat arms my fat tummy and every single thing....  it's that feeling good? and when slim down, I'm able to shop and buy whatever I want in BKK don't need to be worry if i'm able to fit in the size or not.. no worries at ALL. that's my only wishes. that has been my dream forever... So dear kelly lum, tell yourself  "I can do it..." 

Everything have to start on october! dear god, please grant my wish, my advance birthday present.... I know talk is cheap, I need my action.... no gain no pain.... I need to slim down by November!!!!!!! 

it will hurt 

it will take time

it will require sacrifice 

it will require dedication

it will  require willpower

you will need to make healthy decisions

you will need to push your body to its max

there will be temptation

and days when you wanna give up but when you reach your goal

IT'S ALL WORTH 

(quotes i got in the net, keep that in mind!!!) 

lastly friends that are reading this specially boyfriend, don't feed me anymore hiak with fats food and whenever i say I'm craving for something, please confiscate my money ok? tyvm!!!!!! x

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 have been shopping at cotton on since tuesday night at vivo, i was selecting 3 tops 1 dress and 1 bra discounted items, total i thought was $35 i was ok very cheap after paying - 30% off = $24.50 for 5 items i was like omg?! 30% store wide hiakkk cheap thrills much then yesterday drag boy in to cotton on again disturbing him hiak then he got 1 shorts too and I got 2 panties 1 top 2 nail polish for freaking $0.50 and yes, today i went cotton on again to buy 5 panties... original price 11.95 per pcs then discounted $5 then again discounted $2.... so i thought it was $2 per pcs and I bought 5 i thought it was $10 ...  preparing at the counter ,  sales assistant say total $7 and I was like woahhhhh shiokkkk cheap cheap cheap and i'm thinking of going back and back again tomorrow hiak hiak

okay shall save more money la no more spending... but you know it's so cheap >:
(SHALL I GET MORE?) 

it's friday tomorrow!!!!! but I'm working on saturday after that I'm gg Jas place with Jw for stay over!! can't wait, darling gonna cook dinner for us plus maybe some baking session? can't wait for it xxxx

have a good weekends x

{ I'll make every second count when I'm with you }

 "every relationship has it's own problems, but what makes it perfect is when you still want to be there when everything sucks." 

thank you for every single thing, thank you for making my life happier. thank god, I've met you x 

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it's wednesday, 2 more days to Friday and weekends. yahoooo boyfriend not working this weekends again.. but next week he is working again. it's ok!!!! tonight gonna be a busy night cuz i'm gonna help boy's mum do something.. hiak hopefully it success!

xoxo 

{ follow your heart your mind your dreams }

Hi..... yesterday I was down with fever, so thankful today i felt so much better. always looking forward for today's and finally its here so happy but anyway follow me on instagram/twitter 

Thank god it's friday, finally a week with boyfriend around after not going out on the weekends. So yeah less than 2hrs I'm going home but no I'm gonna fetch my dearest bf from work then go home together keke 

it's our month-sary tomorrow, and my parent going malaysia for a day tomorrow hell yeah time to party candle light dinner, hahaha what's the menu? hopefully it will turn out to be good? and yes 

i'm spending 5 nights together, long weekends. So thankful my boss let me off on monday&tuesday. prolly gg malaysia! shop and eat. I'm fat anyway. I'm too blessed to have my boy around. 

and yes, tomorrow marks the 1st Sept. I hope everything's going on well.  May god bless all my friends and boy's and mine family x  our relationship to be better, without being in argument for some reason. 

I miss all my friends and my fattyboom and brendon gonna enlist soon. Hopefully I got to chat up with them soon before he enlist. So yeah looking forward can't wait x 

in advance, happy 43 x 

september please be good, i love you x 

changed my screen protector again, what's new? but darling jas got it from me from bkk, mad love 

okie bye enjoy your weekends and I'll enjoy my long weekends x

I CAN'T WAIT FOR PAY DAY (KACHING$)

{ the one that gave me hopes and dreams }

hi, it's tuesday~~~~

yesterday after work, went over to vivo to fetch boy from his work place. before that, i went daiso shopping for like 20mins while waiting for him? got 5 items, mostly house hold items. I really don't mind shopping at daiso like $100 items and you can get 50 items please, how cool.

boy stay over at my place, sent me to work this morning.... Just ate my dinner. Went for shopping cause it's pay day today morning, "reward myself" I got 1 shorts, my prettiest short ever. and 1 maroon cardigan. Oh yes, save money.. talking about it since last year? I decided to save this month! I've set aside $500 to the another bank and hopefully I won't touch/use them... left with not much of my pay, but i think i'm able to survive with $600? after all the bills and money for mom. I really don't wanna touch the saving any more.

I CAN DO IT

pardon me, it's all my face below skip if you want to:  

ending work in another 3 hours, gonna fetch boyfriend again 

weekends need to be here soon, finally a week that i'm gonna spend with him after 2 weeks not spending our weekends together, shrucks


BYE X 

{ the way we are }

I'm glad, so glad that boy came over and sleep with me yesterday and tonight......  because it's our month- sary but well, we didn't celebrate today because we were both working but it's ok he is coming tonight! no big deal, but yeah it's our 42 months being together. How time files really,

• from 2008 i met him, we were both working till 2009 we started dating, work and school and our relationship - manageable :) 

• 2010 deepest shit, serving the nation.... many things happen, lesser time being together, lesser celebration, army taken everything from him... more added on with more dramas, tears and shit you guys could never imagine....  

• 2011 i'm glad he stayed strong as ever, yes we do quarrel we say those hurtful words to each other... but  he can really hold on to it well, really.... Wallaby for 3 weeks, falls on my birthday sucky but there is still  advance celebration and actual birthday without him....without any calls but only facebook message (i'm glad)  I'm legal, started clubbing... it's turns a routine whereby 1 week, I can go 2 times. He said, clubbing will only drift us apart.... 

• 2012  five more months to ord i'm so so happy he finally get out of it.. but on the other side, he is back to society.. working life... he will still meet people, who knows one day he will find someone better then me? I'm afraid....  he told me not to worry, trust is all i need in a relationship... 

till today, I'm glad he is showing me all his concern and love, even he is busy on the weekends he will still make time for me... trying not to neglect me. I'm happy my boy, happy 42th i love you x 

{ wordy post }

it's been a long while since i wrote on this blog? I shall make it a long and wordy post for today. (if I can) oh well, went for thalassaemia blood test. I'll wait for the result..... meh

time check: 1925hrs, work at 4pm half day! waiting for boyfriend to come, fetch me and off to movie dark knight, heard it's good! Shall see, working tomorrow. Weekends boyfriend working, there goes my boring weekends. All this time, i'm working and nothing else. Sometimes weekends without boyfriend I'll just stay at home or go out with family nothing else. my routine, sucks..... work > home > sleep > work > home > sleep (goes on for like 5 days?) other than that, I do nothing.

I miss going shopping, I miss hanging out with friends. I miss how I used to blog about things. I miss being skinny. wait, i was never skinny. I miss my old weight.... I miss everything.

Gods knows whats the plan for my future..... really very tired, feel like changing job... this is so not interesting... I miss my darlings, I miss volleyball and swimming... I miss everything x

I need to have a mature mindset right now. I wanna stick with you, forever x

Sigh i kept eating and eating, i'm big big fatso I don't have determination, I see what food I eat whatever I have. eat and feel guilty later, this is so me. I need a partner to exercise... I need to love sports. I need someone..... but..... blame myself for being glutton.... tsk

wait, nobody is perfect... you might have a good figure, but you're ugly. or you might be fat, but you're pretty. (:

so, don't give up!

x

{ waits. }

time check: 2259hrs

waiting for boyfriend to knock off from work, off to my place for stay-over. Sitting at the sky park alone, using my macbook... look like some loner now. spent almost $20 for just half an hr just now, i'm so broke. Oh ya, bought a inspired balenciaga wallet last few days at online, can't wait to receive it! guess we're gonna kinect the night and eat macs for supper. hehe can't wait. (volleyball and bowling!) the saddest things is, I didn't save any money and didn't lose any weight...... i'm the worst/ugly/fat/un-attractive girl living on the world.