( 2013's )

it's another year, its 2014.. time passing so quickly. still remember on December 2012 boy and I looking forward for 2013 cause of our first trip together. 

so happy, our first trip together. still remember how much i nagged to boy that all my friends went bkk, how much i want to go during his army days. finally, after his ord he made his promise. he work hard for me, for us and for this trip. 7 days 6 nights spending with him alone in a unfamiliar country. This year Oct-Nov we went again, i can't believe it. So this year i went overseas twice!!!!! (i wanna go again on feb) 

when i started my small lil business from fisheye > apparel items. I didn't take it so serious, it was like my another "part time job" so yeah till today, i'm still trying. I'm very thankful to have my boyfriend, who'll always be there to help me carry all the stuff. I'm thankful for my bro and sally, they fetch me there too. I'm thankful for my boss, she's rly nice and understanding and doesn't mind me having this part time job.  

I'm so thankful for every one of you that have been supporting fundsplz.  

job, 

sometimes i rly wish i could go back to school. i wish i could change my job. I hate working alone, its so boring. I wish i could try something new.. but i know this job, its what i'm looking for. 

family, 

to be honest, i don't have any bonding time. In fact, everytime i step into house i feel so stress. everything change, how much i hope that things could be the same again? everything drifted, i don't wish to talk. I hope things will be better on 2014? Of course i want everyone, my family my friends my boyfriend's family  to be healthy and be happy! 

friends, 

somehow i feel everybody's leaving. we have our own things to do, we don't have the time to waste like how we used to be. everybody changed, including me.. 

bf, 

this year wasn't a very good year for us, many things happen. so many thoughts running thru my mind. i think a-lot i over- think a lot, i rly hate it. i hate the problem of me being paranoid. we almost ended up like this, i know nothing's gonna last f-o-r-e-v-e-r but  i know we both are trying hard to hold on to the relationship. i'm trying my best to forgive and forget every single things. i'm not perfect. i can't stand people who lie, who flirts, who cheats, i just can't. take . it   

well, happy things that happened in 2013 

twice overseas trips 

i've successfully lost 11.5kgs 

things i wanna improve/do 

yeah i know, save $$$ 

make fundsplz big 

my dream weight 

stable relationship 

meet new friends 

of course overseas trip again 

i'm so lost. why do i deserved all these?