{ wordy post }

it's been a long while since i wrote on this blog? I shall make it a long and wordy post for today. (if I can) oh well, went for thalassaemia blood test. I'll wait for the result..... meh

time check: 1925hrs, work at 4pm half day! waiting for boyfriend to come, fetch me and off to movie dark knight, heard it's good! Shall see, working tomorrow. Weekends boyfriend working, there goes my boring weekends. All this time, i'm working and nothing else. Sometimes weekends without boyfriend I'll just stay at home or go out with family nothing else. my routine, sucks..... work > home > sleep > work > home > sleep (goes on for like 5 days?) other than that, I do nothing.

I miss going shopping, I miss hanging out with friends. I miss how I used to blog about things. I miss being skinny. wait, i was never skinny. I miss my old weight.... I miss everything.

Gods knows whats the plan for my future..... really very tired, feel like changing job... this is so not interesting... I miss my darlings, I miss volleyball and swimming... I miss everything x

I need to have a mature mindset right now. I wanna stick with you, forever x

Sigh i kept eating and eating, i'm big big fatso I don't have determination, I see what food I eat whatever I have. eat and feel guilty later, this is so me. I need a partner to exercise... I need to love sports. I need someone..... but..... blame myself for being glutton.... tsk

wait, nobody is perfect... you might have a good figure, but you're ugly. or you might be fat, but you're pretty. (:

so, don't give up!

x